Sunny rain

Hey girlies, so first off it was raining all day yesterday and it was like gloomy today. Then a hour ago it was raining hard. Now it's sunny outside, the weather here is so bipolar. Today was another day I wasn't sure about.  My day wasn't terrible but it wasn't great at all. I realized that a lot can happen in twelve months. The reason I'm telling you this is because I keep trying to be the same person I was a year ago. But I was clueless a year ago and thought the world was the best thing ever.  But now I'm not even sure how to react anymore. No matter how hard I try to get myself to be the Arriana Sullivan I was a year ago I can't. It's not the same anymore and things are so difficult. I mean I really tried I tried doing my hair like I used to. Reading the books I used to and dress how I used to. I even tried listening to the terrible music I used to listen to. But nothing was working and I didn't know what to do.  It took me to sit alone in my room with my headphones in to realize people change.  Some notice the change and some don't pay it much attention.  It's hard for me to really accept that Im not the same girl I was a year ago and I can't change it. I can't pretend to b like her no matter how hard I try. So I ended up wandering around the wall and went inside of Rue 21. One of my favorite stores in the mall by the way. I saw so many things that represents the real me. The Arriana I am now and some people don't like her. I know exactly why she's strong but has a soft heart. Shes unique and doesn't take orders and she runs free.
It's not that I'm not happy with who I am but it's that I was so happy with who I was. But we try and we fall then we live another day. That's how life is my loves.
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Kisses 💓Arriana💓