Feelings of freedom

Do you ever wish you can control everything going on in your life? Have the power over yourself without feeling worried about anything. That you might get caught or get in trouble. To be I always end up comparing myself to a wild horse. If you've ever heard the song by natasha bedingfield. It's a really lovely inspiring song to me. It talks about how we all sometimes wish things were simple and that we could be reckless every once in a while. 

I feel these four walls closin' in
My face up against the glass
I'm looking out, hmm
Is this my life I'm wonderin'
It happened so fast
How do I turn this thing around
Is this the bed I chose to make
Its greener pastures I'm thinkin' about, hmm
Wide open spaces far away

[Pre Chorus]:
All I want is the wind in my hair
To face the fear but not feel scared

[Chorus:]:
Wild horses I wanna be like you
Throwing caution to the wind
I'll run free too
Wish I could recklessly love
Like I'm longing too
I wanna run with the wild horses
Run with the wild horses, oh

[Verse 2:]:
I see the girl I wanna be
Riding bareback, carefree along the shore
If only that someone was me
Jumpin' head first headlong with out a fall
To act and damn the consequence
How I wish it could be that easy
But fear surrounds me like a fence
I wanna break free

[Pre Chorus]:
All I want is the wind in my hair
To face the fear but not feel scared

[Chorus:]:
Oh, wild horses I wanna be like you
Throwing caution to the wind
I'll run free too
Wish I could recklessly love
Like I'm longing too
I wanna run with the wild horses
Run with the wild horses
I wanna run too

[Pre Chorus 2]:
Recklessly abandoning myself before you
I wanna open up my heart, tell him how I feel

[Chorus:]:
Wild horses I wanna be like you
Throwing caution to the wind
I'll run free too
Wish I could recklessly love
Like I'm longing too
I run with the wild horses
Run with the wild horses

Run with the wild horses
I wanna run with the wild horses

If you read these lyrics you can see that everyone wants to be reckless at some point. Anyways how are you guys doing  do you have the control you want in life.
This week I haven't really been posting any YouTube videos or blogging that much. This week has been a very busy week to be honest. So I might do double uploads and double posts. More beauty related posts will be up. A product review is coming up very soon and I plan on filming a April favorites video. But I'll see you all later

Kisses Arriana

Sunny rain

Hey girlies, so first off it was raining all day yesterday and it was like gloomy today. Then a hour ago it was raining hard. Now it's sunny outside, the weather here is so bipolar. Today was another day I wasn't sure about.  My day wasn't terrible but it wasn't great at all. I realized that a lot can happen in twelve months. The reason I'm telling you this is because I keep trying to be the same person I was a year ago. But I was clueless a year ago and thought the world was the best thing ever.  But now I'm not even sure how to react anymore. No matter how hard I try to get myself to be the Arriana Sullivan I was a year ago I can't. It's not the same anymore and things are so difficult. I mean I really tried I tried doing my hair like I used to. Reading the books I used to and dress how I used to. I even tried listening to the terrible music I used to listen to. But nothing was working and I didn't know what to do.  It took me to sit alone in my room with my headphones in to realize people change.  Some notice the change and some don't pay it much attention.  It's hard for me to really accept that Im not the same girl I was a year ago and I can't change it. I can't pretend to b like her no matter how hard I try. So I ended up wandering around the wall and went inside of Rue 21. One of my favorite stores in the mall by the way. I saw so many things that represents the real me. The Arriana I am now and some people don't like her. I know exactly why she's strong but has a soft heart. Shes unique and doesn't take orders and she runs free.
It's not that I'm not happy with who I am but it's that I was so happy with who I was. But we try and we fall then we live another day. That's how life is my loves.
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Kisses 💓Arriana💓